Growing Increasingly Dissatisfied

      [thoughts from    ~burning woman~    by Sha’Tara]

Of late I have tried to be more open, more honest, nor only with those around me, but particularly with myself.  Less hiding of unpleasant awareness (I dare not call it facts), however annoying that might be.  It remains true, of course, that I am profoundly dissatisfied with life as I find it, or as it has found me and insisted on being my constant companion.  Whatever some people may say, and people do say many things, most of which are more the effluent of emotions than truly thought out philosophy, life on earth is not beautiful.  It isn’t wonderful.  It isn’t pretty or sweet smelling or amazing.  It certainly is not safe, nor is it predictable.  It’s neither caring nor loving.  I’d go so far as to say that earth life “is” and that’s about it.

I observe. That’s the first problem.  I think about what I observe: problem number two.  My mind’s the mind of a fixer and that is definitely problem number three.  All of my adult life has been one of observation, analysis, reaching conclusions about this world’s mega problems (obvious to those who observe and who go so far as trying to understand what they are observing) and going about finding solutions to those problems.  In this process I’ve done a lot of crazy things, not all of them “wise” in retrospect, but the consolation is that at least I was trying to do something positive.  However tempted, I never blew up anything, or shot anybody, and yes, in small ways I have to admit to myself that once in a while I did make someone’s life better with my meddling.

That being said, I repeat, I’m increasingly dissatisfied with it all.  This world, ladies and gentlemen (and anyone else in between, or crosswise) is a mess.  It’s the kind of mess that spreads, like a disease, which it really it.  It is the kind of mess that hurts people, many of those in extremely serious ways.  It is the kind of mess that steals people’s right to a decent life, and often takes their very life.

I could look at that as so many do and think, well, that’s the way the cookie crumbles.  How about this great Americanism: shit happens.  Life explained in two words that need no translation or explanation.  Once that wonderful two-word philosophy has been expressed, the next logical step is, “Don’t worry, be happy.”  Sure, be happy.  Why not, if nothing can be done about the state of the world?

Here’s a wonderful quote:

Imagine if suffering were real.
Imagine if those old people were afraid of death.
What if the midget or the girl with one arm
really felt pain?  Imagine how impossible it would be
to live if some people were
alone and afraid all their lives. 
— Jack Gilbert, “Games”

Don’t let the sarcasm pass you by… hold on to it for a few moments of deeper thoughts.  Imagine, for one moment, if all that pain deliberately manufactured on this world… was real.  If children were molested, or slaughtered, mass-murdered in resource wars.  Imagine if women actually didn’t enjoy being sex objects, or being subjected to rape.  Imagine if being a war refugee wasn’t as romantic as you thought it would be.  Imagine if having your home bombed, or burned down, actually was a problem.  Imagine if having nothing to eat, and no water to drink was more than just a bit of an inconvenience.

Jack Gilbert says, “Imagine how impossible it would be to live” … and I paraphrase: if we had to endure what all these other people are enduring.  Let me add this: imagine further how even more impossible it would be if we realized we were the cause of this suffering?

Being an empath on this world is a terrible curse.  Imagine having to feel what other people feel, and not having the choice of feelings, whether they are experiencing torture, or the pleasure of an orgasm.  That is the lowest form of hell, so when some spirit agent or angel or divine presence offers you this gift, let me warn you: think long and hard before you say, “yes.”

I’m now going to take you to a different world; a world inhabited only by empaths.  It is not a very crowded world because these people need their space and they know how to keep it.  Nevertheless we’re speaking here of several millions scattered over a world maybe half the size of earth. These empaths are also telepathic and their lifestyles are ‘in tune’ with their natural environment so they need very little technology to live the kind of lives any of us would envy.

I asked one of the residents from that world what happens there when there is violence; when someone is killed in a fight, for example.  How does the justice system function?  There was a long moment of silence, then the woman I was speaking to answered.

“Your question has no legitimacy on our world.  May as well ask, what do you do when blue turns red?  There is no violence on our world.  We have no crime.  There are no predators.  Nothing is ever taken for all is freely offered.  We have no government for we have no such need.  We have no religion, nor money for the same reason.  No one is ever forced to do anything against their will; no one ever imposes any belief system upon another though all are free to believe whatever they desire; whatever helps them develop their personal awareness of life.”

I insisted on pushing the point further.  “What would happen, say, if a child died in an accident, perhaps a drowning, or from choking and no one was there to help?”

“Apart from the fact that such a scenario could never happen because we are empaths and telepaths from the time we are born, I can tell you what would happen.  The entire world – millions of individuals, not only of humans, but animals, birds, all sentient life – would come to a shocked stand still.  The enormity of the “crime” would be felt by all and nothing would proceed until the reasons for such a terrible tragedy taking place were understood. 

“Then the entire world would mourn deeply. 

“Then the entire world would come together to develop some way to prevent such a terrible thing from happening ever again. 

“But remember, this is taking me back many millennia, to the beginnings of our empathetic and telepathic civilization, a civilization that gives equality to all sentient life and that respects and honours all of life.

“As embodied entities we are not free of needs.  We do consume plants; we drink the water and we breathe the air.  We have various types of shelters for those seasons when it is necessary to allow the weather to get colder, or wetter so as to balance and replenish the environment.  None of that, however, is done without awareness of the energy flow between all of us, by which I mean sentients, plus the air, water, plants and soil.  We are “us” – nothing is excluded from our awareness.  A mountain; a flower, exists in my thoughts with the same intensity or “value” as my own child.”

That conversation took place a long time ago.  In the intervening years I’ve compared the performance of Earthians (who claim to be human) with what the Altarians (Yes, the world I was writing about is called Altaria) have managed to accomplish through a reasonable observation of what works, and what can never work, rejecting what they observed had never worked and would never work.  They didn’t change their environment, they changed themselves.  They rejected the selfish nature by developing two hidden senses that all pseudo-humans possess: empathy and telepathy.

Earthians’ great failing (they have many!) is their obdurate choice of solutions to societal problems that can only make those problems worse.  Tied in to this failing is to insist on regurgitating “solutions” that have been tried countless times, and failed abysmally in equal measure and equal number of times.  That is not a sign of intelligence, quite the opposite.

Speaking of telepathy, man’s technology is in the process of forcing this upon the population of earth.  It won’t be a gentle, open, joyful sharing of a people’s deepest thoughts, hopes and longings though.  It will be an extraction of information.  The information, by itself is pointless and meaningless, but that’s not the point of the surveillance police state.  The point is to rape the mind.  Do “they” give a damn whether you prefer to poison yourself at McDonalds rather than Burger King?  That you support “the Broncos” rather than “The Colts” or whether you’re homosexual rather than hetero?  That you pray to Allah and not Jehovah?  No, of course not, but they will make you think that because it creates fear and anger.  Fear and anger lead to endless anti-life aberrations; to violence, pain and death.  Why would the Status Quo want that?  Because that is how it manufactures power over life.

Yes, I long for my “transition” from earth to Altaria.  I’ve been working diligently to qualify as a novice and trainee in compassion, empathy and telepathy on my chosen next world for many years now.  I regret none of the time spent developing a mind that can understand and live on such a world.

The downside has been a gradual “separation” from the accepted, and acceptable; for my part, a pain-filled growing awareness of all the horrible crimes committed daily, mostly unawares, by people without feelings for those (human, animal, etc) they use, abuse and whose lives they destroy without any qualm, guilt or even a passing thought. 

“Pass me those wings, will ya?” 

“Git ‘er Dead” A sticker on the back of a  pickup canopy advertising a type of bullet accompanied by the picture of a dead buck lying on the ground. 

Cheering when more “boots on the ground” are sent by the President to some country the cheerers couldn’t find on a map. 

By what right?  By all those “rights” that are destroying this civilization day in, day out and none the wiser.

I’ll tell you this: there is but one weapon of mass destruction on this world: it’s its pretend humanity; every single one a weapon aimed at every other and the world they exist on without ever bothering to develop a life purpose.  Aye, there’s the rub: no real purpose but to exist and die.

And that, ladies and gentlemen of the jury, is my “close.” You may retire for your verdict but regardless of what you decide, I already know what will be the outcome.

15 thoughts on “Growing Increasingly Dissatisfied

  1. franklparker

    I am always suspicious of descriptions of ‘heaven’ and other utopias. I persist in believing that our human nature is not entirely bad, that evil happens not out of malevalent intentions but out of a failure to imagine the unintended consequences of our actions.

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    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      Thanks for your comment, Frank. Good and bad are relative terms. If you invite ten people to dinner and all the place settings are dirty except one, it would be proper to say that not all place settings are dirty, therefore there’s good and bad in them. But it’s a stretch to say that because of that, the offering is ok. It is not ok if the means to lay out clean settings is available to the host. It would also be legitimate for some of the guests to say, “I’m going to eat at John’s – they say they have clean settings there.” You don’t need to be certain that “at John’s” they do have clean settings. The dirty settings in front of you have already (or should have) motivated you to go check out John’s claim. When I speak of Altaria it always raises eyebrows. How would I know for sure? Well, I know the characters of those who speak for that world, and what have I got to lose? Besides I’m going there on a visa, not on a citizenship. As I have done many times already, I will be returning to this place. Perhaps that is why I’m more concerned than most about man’s moral choices and about civilization’s collapse. I “dread” the thought of what I’ll be coming back to if I extrapolate current trends. That’s the problem with long-term awareness, and why the powers that be do all in their considerable power of conviction to prevent us from discovering our real past and taking responsibility for our distant future.


  2. gserpent

    There is as much wisdom in pain as there is in pleasure. Fear and laziness are why the masses act the way the do. Fearful of being different and not fitting in with others or their imaginary god. To lazy to find their true potential and do it. We are not human from he start, we need to become human. The realization that we are responsible for ourselves. The very task of becoming human is a colossal achievement. I may piss some people off, but I don’t care. The truth hurts. This planet is not full of humans it is full of herd animals.

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  3. Sha'Tara Post author

    Quote: “We are not human from the start, we need to become human.” The claim by society that Earthians are human is totally spurious, and their behaviour proves it in spades. It’s heartening to discover that I’m not the only one here who knows this. The problem with claiming to be what one is not is it cancels out any effort that could be made to achieve the claimed estate. Why struggle for what one already has? It’s the same as in Christianity. The point at the beginning was to change one’s very nature to become “like Christ” and then there were the synoptic gospels as well as the book of Acts (doesn’t matter if they are real or made up) to describe in some detail what that entails. Over time these people came to believe that by virtue of a bit of water and some questionable mantras they were already and forever “saved.” It should come as no surprise to anyone that such a condition can only lead to corruption which is what allows the status quo to lie, cheat, murder and mass-murder to the cheers of the corrupted masses.


    1. franklparker

      If it looks like a duck, walks like a duck and quacks like a duck … We are all of us humans by definition. Violence is part of the natural order and found in all species. The idealised creatures you describe are the ones that are not human.

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  4. Phil Huston

    Didn’t I say something about how predestination freaked me out? There is no path to the cosmic stream, no way to buy a license to stream the cosmic radio, it’s down to behavior. I agree with Mother Teresa. Kindness and change happen between two people, no institution will ever do it. Peace begins with a smile, a kind word, a kind deed, a kindness of any order, nothing complicated.


    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      I wish every individual who “believes” in Jesus, God, Allah, Great Pumpkin or whatever could read (and absorb) your above comment. “There is no path to the cosmic stream; no way to buy a license to stream the cosmic radio, it’s down to BEHAVIOR.”… Are you sayin’ I can’t buy my stairway to heaven? 🙂 And on that note, the lyrics to the famous …
      “Stairway To Heaven” (Led Zeppelin) (more on your comment below the lyrics)

      [[ There’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold
      And she’s buying a stairway to heaven.
      When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
      With a word she can get what she came for.
      Ooh, ooh, and she’s buying a stairway to heaven.

      There’s a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
      ‘Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
      In a tree by the brook, there’s a songbird who sings,
      Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.

      Ooh, it makes me wonder,
      Ooh, it makes me wonder.

      There’s a feeling I get when I look to the west,
      And my spirit is crying for leaving.
      In my thoughts, I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
      And the voices of those who stand looking.

      Ooh, it makes me wonder,
      Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

      And it’s whispered that soon, if we all call the tune,
      Then the piper will lead us to reason.
      And a new day will dawn for those who stand long,
      And the forests will echo with laughter.

      If there’s a bustle in your hedgerow, don’t be alarmed now,
      It’s just a spring clean for the May queen.
      Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
      There’s still time to change the road you’re on.
      And it makes me wonder.

      Your head is humming and it won’t go, in case you don’t know,
      The piper’s calling you to join him,
      Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
      Your stairway lies on the whispering wind?

      And as we wind on down the road
      Our shadows taller than our soul.
      There walks a lady we all know
      Who shines white light and wants to show
      How everything still turns to gold.
      And if you listen very hard
      The tune will come to you at last.
      When all are one and one is all
      To be a rock and not to roll.

      And she’s buying a stairway to heaven.]]
      Quote: “Kindness and change happen between two people, no institution will ever do it. Peace begins with a smile, a kind word, a kind deed, a kindness of any order, nothing complicated.”
      What you write here is “absolute” truth. Yes, it isn’t complicated, and let’s all think of the payoff: unimaginable. Yet here are most people, locked in step to a growing military-industrial complex, spending trillions of petrodollars to devastate the environment and people’s lives. Why is it so obvious to some, so “not so” to the majority? “What is wrong with people?” Brainwashing and an almost total lack of empathy. Violence is endemic to earth. It is our greatest problem. The solution lies in turning ourselves from fear and hate and attendant destructive behavior to kindness; to compassion. Who doesn’t know that wars have never solved anything? Never changed anything? Sure we are born selfish in nature. But why promote such an atavistic nature? Why not take advantage of what’s been written, and done here and there demonstrating, as in your example of Mother Teresa, that anyone can be freely compassionate, by choice. Sure, it takes guts, courage, but who, when growing up doesn’t dream of becoming some kind of hero?

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      1. Phil Huston

        I always heard that line as “A sprinkling of the May queen.” Here it is – Your stairway lies on the whispering wind. The one that drops wisdom and compassion into the cosmic stream like a spring breeze drops Crepe Myrtle blossoms, and all you have to do is stick your toe in the water for the magic to happen.

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  5. Woebegone but Hopeful

    It would be arrogant to dismiss the notion of any other race in a Universe 14 billion years old and at some estimate 40 billion light years ‘wide’. In short given that space and time all things are possible.
    We may, in the majority, not have it within our genetic make up to be any more than we are. We do however have the intellect to make the judgement to supress the violence, the anger and the greed; itself not any easy task, I say this from experience of living with ‘me’ for 66+ years.
    If we ignore out own intellects and in consequence the ability to embrace Compassion Tolerance and Respect then we will end up as a mere very thin smear on the fossil record a barely noticeable on in fact. And all the bombast, conceit, and grasping of mean spirited little folk will have come to naught and it will be as if they will have never existed….imagine an egotist having to face that truth….just desserts I say


    1. Sha'Tara Post author

      Quote from your comment: “We do however have the intellect to make the judgment to suppress the violence, the anger, and the greed; itself not an easy task,”
      Indeed it is not an easy task. It is something that has to be decided upon at a certain turning point when the individual makes a commitment to her/himself that there will be no turning back, no matter what. At least that’s how it was for me – the only way it would ever mean anything and stick. Then one has to tear out all the “little things” that cause the fits of anger, the fears, the need to control – working on personal detachment, ripping out all the hooks that the System, other people put in us, including what we hook ourselves into. From my experience, this is both, a mental and spiritual evolutionary step. What makes it irrevocable is having a purpose that demands these changes of us. When I sense the dreaded backsliding coming on I immediately remind myself of the purpose I’ve set up for myself, making the choice to remain on the “straight and narrow” somewhat easier because at that point it is no longer really a choice. Mind over matter; will over emotions…?

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      1. Woebegone but Hopeful

        This is one of the hard battles Sha’ Tara, throughout all this, not to loose track of Compassion. Without Compassion we do not move forward.


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